i wet my pants...wtf!

Woke up in the middle of the night, didn’t know why but for sure I think I’ve wet my boxer. WTF!!! At first I thought I’ve pee in my pant only to realize that it’s the term that I kinda missed for a very very long time - ‘wet dream’. How on earth could this happen. All I know is that wet dream normally occurs when some teenager is dreaming of sensual stuff like ergg you know. But mine was well…as much as I can recalled is that I was behind the wheels driving this one cool superb car… and the next thing when I woke up, I wet my boxer. Sh*t!

Knew pretty damn well that I wont be pleased at all, I reluctantly took off my boxer, and walla! I was semi-naked and I was going to sleep with my thingy artistically/‘beautifully’ exposed to the night chilly weather (and with the table fan blowing by my bedside...it just didn't help at all!!!)...Gosh! It’s freezing down there. For a while, I just couldn't sleep. It just didn't feel right, i mean sleeping with nothing on...except for my shirt. Now that was when the things of the past kept rushing down my memory lanes. How it reminded me of the moments when I slept with her (and her as well). It was warmth and totally in contrast to whatever you want to call my state of condition was. How I missed that moment…

Perhaps it’s a sign that I’m moving to another phase in my life. This all come down to one fateful day which happened to be my birthday. Among other things that I wish for was that I would remain celibate for as long as it takes. No more sleepover at some stranger’s room (even my housemates never realized this…oops), no more porns and etc. I was quite certain that with all of these activities going on, it affected my memory in one way or another. The ability that I used to proud of. I believe that the more I did these things, the more likely that I forget things easily. It’s like my mind dropped tremendously to which it was close enough for me of being dumb.

That was then, and this is now...i guess my mind is much clearer now and focused. The celibacy thingy…I wonder how long it would last…